just a kid

"I opened my wine bottle and took off my shoes. I found that the room had an easel, but I wasn't a painter, just a kid looking for luck..." - Charles Bukowski

knowledge

The Christian has a great advantage over other men, not by being
less fallen than they, nor less doomed to live in a fallen
world, but by knowing that he is a fallen man in a fallen world.
- C. S. Lewis

valuable

In any museum we will find quite ordinary things - clothes, a
walking stick, a pen, pieces of furniture - which are only of
value because they were possessed and used by some great person.
It is the ownership which gives them worth. It is so with the
Christian. The Christian may be a very ordinary person, but he
acquires a new value and dignity and greatness because he
belongs to God. The greatness of the Christian lies in the fact
that he is God's. - William Barclay

how it should be...

road signs

We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress
means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in
that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most
progressive. - C. S. Lewis

looking...

to be paid to do what you love, isn't that the dream? find something that you love to do and you will never work a day in your life.

on the road to perdition

someone once said, death comes to us all. all a man can do is smile back. i wonder if i will know the moments prior to my death. if i will recognize when i myself am standing on the threshold of death's door. who will be on the other side when the door opens?
i know that a small and narrow path leads to the place that i long to go. i also know this, that i have wondered from that path many times in my life. i want to say that i am on it now, but i am not certain. im certain that i am disatisfied with where i am. i want to grow. but its as if i am a plant on the edge of ruin. as if every part of me yearns to blossom, and yet i am in the winter. the sun and water has forsaken me and i am buried in snow. cold and alone. i want to feel the sun on my face more than anything.
perhaps its the dusk before the dawn. maybe i will convince myself of that just to get through tomorrow. maybe its the last night before the war. the final day of captivity before the convict is set free.
i pray that i do not disappoint. perhaps God has gotten used to disappoinment when hae looks at me. i can only recognize my failure and move on, trying to fail once less tomorrow then i did today. will i? probably not. but all i can do is hope. if i lose that hope, than i have nothing to live for. death has already assigned me a date. until that date comes, i can live.

never

"Never, never pin your whole faith on any human being: not if he
is the best and wisest in the whole world. There are lots of
nice things you can do with sand; but do not try building a
house on it." - C. S. Lewis

pure. honest. love.

one of my favorite quotes is by g.k. Chesterton and it goes like this: "i am concerned with a certain way of looking at life which was created in me by the fairy tales, but has since been ratified by the mere facts." i think its amazing and so true. i have this picture of love from movies like beauty and the beast, and sleeping beauty, and heck, even lady and the tramp. and i want that for me. i want the best... i love in sleeping beauty when the prince fights his way through all of the obstacles and thorns and dragon and fire and he climbs to the highest tower and kisses the girl! i love in gladiator, when maximus fights for what he believes in. not because its popular but because it is the right thing to do. i love in braveheart when William Wallace fights for what he knows is right. yes its hard and difficult and something that not many choose, but its the right thing to do. you may lose everything along the way, but in the end, its worth it. shouldn't every guy want to rescue the beautiful girl? doesn't every little girl grow up wishing she was a princess and wanting to be swept off her feet by her "knight in shining armor?" is that too much to ask? i guess i just want love. pure. honest. love.

i miss you maui

good quote

"i am concerned with a certain way of looking at life which was created in me by the fairy tales but has since been ratified by the mere facts." - g.k. chesterton